It is often times quite easy for to listen to a friend with a problem and take a position from which to understand the fullest of what is being asked before repeating back to them (most times) the answer they already stated.  Sometimes it is so easy to see what appears to be most obvious..

Today however, I have been taken to the deepest state of despair that I have managed in a long time.

The conversation at my home is that of decisions that need to be addressed for my future with my Chosen Life Partner (Husband) Javier.

Although I thought that with 10 years to come to this understanding of the possibility, I always held out the possibility of a miraculous global shift which would usher a new wave of understanding...  I held out for the eyes opening in the world that my love for Javier is AS VALID as ANYONE elses.  I have cried the tears of victories and choked down the lumps of disbelief as a population voted and stated that my own happiness doesnt mean for SHIT...  Yes, I voice an anger that this can happen in the "Land of the Free"

I can't find any other way to explain this hatred.  I have sought my whole life to understand what it is about my love that god hates..  God has emotions?  God Hates?  What the FUCK?

I am entertained by a play that is running.  The way 'Book of Mormon' has so eloquently put into words that I so easily resonate..

I have often held the belief that it isn't god or christ that destroys our lives - it is the interpretation of god that I question.  

Here is a tribute in that sentiment..